I’ve forgotten the start from when, probably the beginning of this year, my skin became hypersensitive, but I do remember, that disease lasted half year, and it’s the most suffering time ever, I won’t forget it, never. Every day and night, my skin was itching and aching, I told myself, I can’t scratch them, such fucking red poxes, I gotta sustain. During those dark days, I was afraid to have a bath, even I was scared to look at my body. That must be the longest time I had insomnia, I couldn’t fall asleep all the time, when I was sleepy, that’s the time to go to uni. The problem affected my study, my life, there was no difference with the time or what I was doing, and the only thing is agonizing. The thing had meliorated since July, otherwise I don’t know how to be alive any more. I thought I can turn over a new leaf, but nice things won’t come to me in such easy way. September when is another start with troubles. I lost one of my handset firstly, then the bond when I moved. I demolished my passport at mid-autumn festival, bloody stupid thing with the washer. My notebook also wanna get into scrapes, and mess up my life worse, there is something wrong with its fan, I’ve to take my BUSL textbook to underlay my notebook. How much I believed my notebook, but it’s in history now. I don’t have time to fix it, and that costs too much. Anyway, thank you for reading my complaints, I do need some audients who can listen to me, after I moved in new place, there is no one I do know, the only way to call away my annoyances is writing blog, however, there are too many troubles, I don’t want to list them all, those you have read are little pieces. I was used to tell myself, tomorrow is another day, but this saying is not appropriate now, I tell myself, tomorrow gonna be worse, so today is not bad.

Please, any guys, deities, when you read this above, bless me anyhow, I hope 2008 can end as soon as possible, I bloody hate this year.

One more thing, please don’t refer any stuff in your comments, I mean those troubles, thanks.

There's not much time left, because I'm going to go back to Sydney next week, and my mood is impacted partially by that. Therefore, I gonna face some problem which I meet before. I have experienced a lot before this semester break, I though that I can figure out the truth and cope with those problems, but eventually I was wrong and I failed. What I gonna do is to reappraise myself, especially my life style. I wanna get back to the past, at that time, I had regular time for work and rest, obviously, that make me healthy and vigorous which is dramatically different to my present condition.

In addition, I’m muddleheaded with a lot of stuff which I pondered out and out, so far, I haven’t gotten the response that I need. I don’t wanna mess up anything, so I have to wait, just for a verity, however, it can be out of our world. People must persist in their belief and what they thought primely, otherwise, we don’t own any more chip in front of our bottom line.

“What’s your nationality?” when people ask me such a question, I’ll say that I’m Chinese proudly. These weeks, some severe events happened all over the world, especially in some western countries. To analysis these events, although we can’t think that that’s a degeneration of western culture, we can realized the negative change happened clearly. Ask yourself, you western people, are you an ethnic discriminator? If the answer is ‘yes’, I do haven’t words to response you, but anyway you will be abandoned by the world, there’s no one will take in your attitudes. However, if some one who did some stupid things because of other people’s instigation, I’ve to say that you think this world too simply or you don’t treat truth seriously. In my mind, I used to think that France is a civil country which can take in other countries’ culture and people, and I thought France is the country which I must travel to, but actually I was wrong. French people doesn’t look such kind which they perform externally, there are a big amount of French people are rude, they don’t care about truth, what they usually do is to overturn the truth, break most people’s happiness, and accept some terrorists’ distribution. I don’t want to talk about governments, because they can’t represent their all citizens’ ideas, focusing on citizens, we can know more deeply about the country. Finally, I must tell western people, we have known your misdeeds, and you’re bringing blame on yourselves.

 

今天是一个激动人心的日子，逾二万多华人聚集在澳大利亚首都堪培拉，只为了一个目的，那就是支持奥运圣火的传递。半夜二点，我们的大巴驶上了前往堪培拉的路途，沿途看到的都是前往堪培拉支持奥运的各组织的大巴，几乎每到一个公路的交接口，都能看到从其他城市赶来支持奥运的人们。早上五点，我们终于抵达了堪培拉。我的组被分到了联邦公园前的大道上，一路所见的景象都是处在亢奋中的人群。当然，那些捣乱分子是不会放弃这种机会的，不久天空中就出现了由喷气式飞机打出的“Free TIBET”的字样，这让在场的留学生们都气愤异常，好在过了不久又看到了由华人驾驶的飞机拉着“One China”的横幅出现在空中。战斗并没有结束，不久朋友打电话告知，藏独分子正从国会大楼向联邦公园转移。在联邦大道中央突然出现了藏独分子的身影，于是从大道两旁不断地涌进挥着旗帜的人群去组织藏独分子的恶行，此时我再也抑制不住心中的怒火，也冲了上去。那些人其实都是由藏独分子收买的鬼佬，他们拉着藏独的标语在马路中央行进，而我们避免了肢体接触，用国旗遮住他们的标语，并且不断地将他们向围场外面驱赶，而沿途的群众都在为我们加油呐喊，最终我们把他们赶出了联邦大道，这应该是整个火炬传递过程中最感人的一个场面了，我深刻地感受到了什么叫做民族自豪感，我为我的祖国而自豪！随后的传递过程都比较顺利，虽然还是有零星的藏独分子在举标语，但很快就被我们红色的海洋给淹没了。

在这次圣火传递活动中，沿途助威最多的是我们留学生团体，而其中绝大多数都是80后的人们，我想说，我们通过自己的实际行动证明了，我们是有能力支撑起伟大祖国的一代！

Long time I haven’t edited a new blog entry, not because of my time, but my willness.

First of all, let me tell you guys what happened to me these days, and what I did. Since the end of last month, I have moved out from the house in Marsfield, and I lived with Shawn these two weeks, thanks him a lot, because I brought many discommodities to him. Furthermore, I changed my hair style yesterday, not only the style actually, but also the colour of my hair, I dyed light brown for my hair. Originally, I don’t want to cut my hair, because I want to save money for other purpose and that also the reason I am looking for a job currently. I have handed in many resumes to those toggery and nosheries’ managers since last week, but I haven’t got any responses yet. Anyway, I dressed my hair finally. There is another importance that I am going to move to a unit in Parramatta, although the distance from the unit and my university is further than before, my friends and I gonna have a completely individual space from now on for sure, because there is no stranger who share the residence with us. BTW, this semester has begun for two weeks, and assignments are really heavy, as well as some assessments. Fortunately, I’ve used to spend time in the main library, and the only reason why I am struggling for study is to get a better result than last semester. To keep the step which I am on actually, I won’t flinch.

I’ve uploaded new photos on the album, you guys can skim over them.

话说大年夜的晚上实在是很无聊。

周三的晚上，走在家附近的小路上、坐在去City的bus上、走在City的大街上，区别都不大，两个字——冷清。

人生在这种时候确实是够郁闷的，想象着国内现在张灯结彩、礼花齐放的样子，再看看眼前的场景，两者之间形成了巨大的落差。

每当人郁闷的时候就容易醉，喝酒到现在，醉也就醉过2次，却从来没有吐过。

这一天还真是值得纪念啊，人生的第一吐就在年初一的凌晨献给悉尼了。

吐就吐了，我却难得的高兴，因为有朋友在身旁的感觉是幸福的。

半夜里，翅膀、泱儿，还有Sharon轮流扛着我，给我买水，等我吐完，不知过了多久我们才打的回家，最后又被扛着送到床上。

酒醉的时候人是难过了点，但并没什么大不了的。

忽然想到自己第一次醉的时候的情景，就在2年前吧，那天刚分手的我，在一天没吃东西的情况下猛的灌下两瓶啤酒，结果就瘫在桌子上，记得最后是爸妈把我抬到床上的。

人在失落的时候得到帮助总是特别得不一样，我要谢谢我的朋友们，新年的第一天，我过得很开心。

一个戏剧化的开始能给我一个不平凡的一整年吗？希望它是positive的，呵呵。

 

Refer to the title, we can talk about many different topics round it. Focus on our life, we ask ourselves a question all the time, ‘how much time do we have in our life?’, and the response is that the time is limited and it’s not much enough that dissipation can be accepted. There is another question which we should concern next, ‘how to define the word, dissipation?’, here, the common idea is ‘the motion which is for pointless things or wasting something’. After realizing these previous information, let’s do some further thinking. When considering our life, we know that there are a lot of opportunities and choices over our life, so people have to make decisions though they don’t know the final result, that is just like a bet. What happen in casino must be bets, and all of us are just like gamblers in the casino, continuing decision making may trends to reverse results, but we never give up the opportunity of bet, we don’t fear failure, also, we know that we haven’t the capacity to escape failure over time. The key point is we must make decision, in order to achieve our aims, we can’t lose any opportunity, even we will fail, and we have to move on. Life is just like a big bet, we can gain anything we want from it, and however, we can lose anything we have at once. The easiest way to make control of our condition is to choose the choice as carefully as possible. Unfortunately, I’m not a prudent person, so I’ll be in trouble sometimes. In addition, I’m a ramstam person, so I always insist on one thing whatever it has bright future. My mother usually advise me that you don’t need to be obstinate with responsibility for anything, but I can’t do like that. I want to say that I will still make the decision which I think it’s right, I’ll bet even if I’ll lose my entire life.

Many people asked me to update my space, so I have to make time though I’m busy currently. During these days, studying, working, meet, and looking for a house are all the stuff I was fixing attention on. I worked for a casual job, although I really wanna keep it as a part time job, its workload is quite heavy to me, and there is no fixed timetable for working, so it’s not suitable for me in my situation. Anyway, I just work for that firm when both the position and I are available. The place I worked is in a stadium in Olympic park, and I will upload photos soon. Actually, I don’t know what I was talking about and what I’m going to say next, so just stop here, that’s advisable.

 

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